Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Knee feels like some thousand needles seeking blood from the marrow of my bone
Thigh feels like some taut rope pulling at the joints
Heart feels like some million yous tightening the bindings about it
I feel like some lousy human being.
Decisions, again and again they come back to haunt me. Seems like some things are never to be and Fate just returns time and again to ascertain that everything goes according to its plan and I'm just a pawn, always advancing but never able to do otherwise, without a mind of its own, giving in to everything else, caving in to pressure, being somepawn else.
Today was just plain quirky. I just laid up with a couple of 8s and I thought I was on my way but it just blew up and now I'm hitting 0s, nowhere near. I feel anti. social ):
Today's a bad patch. Tomorrow will be a better day, I promise, cos I will make myself feel whatever I want to, and I SAY TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY.