Tuesday, December 11, 2007
i'm concerned of where i'm right now which happens to be right at the bottom and i know very well if i continue like this, i'm ending up no where. so that's why i was "whining", though i think a more apt term would be "dissatisfied".
ip is still considered as a subset of education, is it not? i dont think there's anything exceptionally great or elite about it. instead we're on the losing end in some instances, if you care to weigh the scales properly. if the higher-ups choose to scrap the programme, where would we be then? if the programme fails, what certs do we have to boast of? i think most importantly, regardless of whichever of the many subsets of education we are in at present, we dont be complacent, nor be too disgruntled about where we are right now; although this i admit i'm trying very hard not to head towards. our results, life, everything is not dependent on where we are, instead it matters more of who we are and how we choose to face up to the environment around us.
i was dissatisfied four days prior to this as i was disappointed that i wasnt performing my best this entire year. trust me, whether you're elite or not, having underperformed the whole year and marring your pretty record all these years isnt something you would feel happy about. and taking such a long time for me to realise this is equally disappointing. and this as you know, is not the fault of my surroundings, but my very own fault. i hope my "whining" four days ago is justified now.
ah just felt i had to right that, sorry if i offended anyone. i didnt mean to.
oh i'm really glad that i went to study with wadee yesterday (: cos the session made me realise the many misconceptions i had about solving math which in turn explains my failure to excel in math. hopefully i can clear all my doubts before school starts! so wadeeeeeee reserve next monday for me! i'm suddenly interested in math. haha. it sounds so weird; me being interested in math.
and yesterday was a good training (: it was the very first time all my 4cards had nice grouping.
just finished theory homework (: yay i think i'm starting to take an interest in music again.
this is a happyhappy beginning.